the more days that pass in this lifetime, the more i realize how much i am a creature made for the middle road. i don't do well in the highs and lows even though my life has given me many opportunities to experience the extremes - i find ease and peace in the space between, within the ebbs and flows. winter is a season for slowness and sinking deeper into ones own self, creativity, creation, and remaking.
i've been thinking a lot over the last months since INBODY was launched about how healing is a choosing of creation. how it, in itself is a form of art. how being present in one's own body is a rebellion to the repression + chaos that our society is built upon. how choosing pleasure is a dedication to feeling into and embodying what often sets us apart.
i've been reflecting on how hardships are often a mix of the ways we choose to recreate the knowledge we have deeply embedded from all the parts of our lived experiences that have challenged us to break, bend, mold, and fall apart. and how living for liberation is a loving of oneself in a world that continually tells us that we can't have agency or prioritize following the requests of our own hearts.
i have been holding this fear that if i return to embodying the most of myself, became, in ways i have never fully been, that i will lose all that i have worked to create until now, that the realities of the way the world runs will win. i have missed the ways i have lived in moments where life invites slowness, stillness, creation, and deep intimate connection. how the music feels in the body, the ways words move the heart. how pleasure isn't purely in the giving of oneself to another, but in the intricacies of everything that activates + pulls love to the surface. how we are magnetized to live in pleasure, even if moment to moment we feel like everything around us is falling apart.
AFFIRMATION:
as i closed out another cycle and sink deeper into the season we are within, i committed to myself to sink deeper in to the ways I experience + share intimacy. i make a promise to return to living life in a way that translated abundance in the things that feel truest to me. to share authentically, even when or as fear, perfectionism, and failure began to repress me. as i move through the winter, i am reshaping the foundation i stand upon to root into what aligns with my values and letting go of the things that have been disingenuous to me.
- words by euni