things i currently hate about me (p.6/6)
a 6 part love letter to my body through the microscope of movement + 1 rope
if i ignore you - does it mean that i can forget how much i want you to be tenderly loved? is it even fair, or just, that you hold on to everything i would rather forget. is there a truth to the ways you cling, collect when i’d rather you just go away. i’ve mirrored the pain i received into the ways i try to shrink you every single day. how i try to make you small mimics how i silence the expressions of every part of me. obsession takes my attention and pulls out the microscope to dissect every inch of you to look for the tiniest of details to rip apart. as if by destroying you i can hide the hurting oozing from the holes in my heart. this is how i learned to love/hate/love/hate you. dissatisfied from comparisons that make me try to disguise you when what i really want is touch that makes me feel most connected to you.
part 5/6, self portrait series by euni
inside the selfstudylab
03.24.24, 3:28-8:02[a|m]
euni is a multi-disciplinary artist, facilitator, practitioner, and educator of intimacy, kink + healing located in San Diego, CA. learn more at selfstudylab.com / substack.sensoryplayspace.com
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