things i currently hate about me (p.4/6)
a 6 part love letter to my body through the microscope of movement + 1 rope
they say shape is attractive. but only when it’s boxed in. into a standard that looks smooth, perfect in a specific kind of way. there’s no room for messiness. regardless of the size or shape. it seems to be something that makes you wonder - what does it feel like to exist in another person’s skin. an obsession i have with watching the ways you expand and contract based on the ways i move, twist, turn + bend. a comfort for the sadness i carry to make a home to hoard + burrow within dimples upon and underneath my skin. i straddle holding on and letting go. cycle between love and hate for the ways you fluctuate, uncertain what to expect. afraid to get close, terrified to open up and let you show. i prefer to hide you like i hide my feelings - with layers covering quirky white lies. every day confronting the fears of surfacing insecurities of closeness that have softened the in + outside of my things.
part 4/6, self portrait series by euni
inside the selfstudylab
03.24.24, 3:28-8:02[a|m]
euni is a multi-disciplinary artist, facilitator, practitioner, and educator of intimacy, kink + healing located in San Diego, CA. learn more at selfstudylab.com / substack.sensoryplayspace.com
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