things i currently hate about me (p.2/6)
a 6 part love letter to my body through the microscope of movement + 1 rope
being bound reminds me you are alive. that you feel. that i am a part of you. and you are a part of me. to return home. stop running. hiding in an attempt to live separately. being bound reminds me that connection to you is the only place i feel free.
padded pillows barely pushing outward.
as if to say, i could take it or leave it, this thing called love.
i thought you were here to protect my tender heart from pain. and when wounded, to comfort the sorrow away. but you’ve been mostly deflated. numb. disconnected from the role in my life that you’re designed to play.
how can one nourish another when they haven’t fully developed their own way? a lack of identity is nothing short of obvious when every day you take a new shape, shape-shift from hot to cold.
there’s a dullness that encages the ball that beats boldly within my chest. curated by the ways you can’t sit still or find peace to exist confidently like all the other breasts.
so the passion my pulse begs to pump and pour out into everything i touch is muted by the push and pull of how you embody or hide from your assigned role. when will you protrude with power, padding the blows this body takes on, living out the impulses of our curious heart. bravely love our wildest dream.
part 2/6, self portrait series by euni
inside the selfstudylab
03.24.24, 3:28-8:02[a|m]
euni is a multi-disciplinary artist, facilitator, practitioner, and educator of intimacy, kink + healing located in San Diego, CA. learn more at selfstudylab.com / substack.sensoryplayspace.com
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